I can't Lie

Lose her!, a friend said it once to me.
Just lose her out of your mind!
Don't tell me you haven't been warned before...!!
And don't cry on me when its all too late!!
Coz I bet you will!!!

I just smile and said, I won't.
I will let her be at the end though,
I just can't understands why I'm opened again
Is it the thirst of passion?

I need to find out
I need to touch the point of no return
You may say its useless
Its the challenge that bites
and when you reach the enough
you have to admit that enough is enough
yet I will still fall and cry

Still,
"Love you most" will be said at the time
and till I cannot speak to wishper the words, I will say it anyway there is
Coz it is in my heart
I can't lie

It has end without having start

You have become a part of my heart
Though nothing is what I am at you
And nothing is this meant to you
as a fool to love, where he shall not love anymore

As my heart comes to a point.
As where it realizes to stop disguising
As it will be empty without truth
this is what it wants

It started something the world has never start
It started something you never start
So it will end with nothing that is never start
As it will be in it
like as it starts
fadeless, eruptless,mindless

It knows,
It understands,
It never have you however it is
eventhough it can, it never can
satisfy you, happy you,cheerish you, comfort you, love you
Thogh it would, it never could
It never regret.

I will never regret
To met you is to love you
and to love you is to leave you
to leave you is to be with you
and I have not time I have passed to abort
to be rewinded and to be with you
And I love you even more as when once I love her
as her caring was enough and i want love
I never regret my love.

good bye, love.

When, Nothing is everything

When the sun start to vanish
There goes another day in silent
When those moon start to arise
But days never could be replaced

When I hear your eyes speaks
About love, about you, about life
Soar everything for me are blank
When eyes opens, understand the love for me blurs

When the days with you gives majesty
Like no tears will be created and
Like your love belongs forever to me
Not a dot of love there and stays
then go home without you and your joy of love
nor with another to replace thee

When time ticking and pushing me away
When sadness and wounds wicked and wicked
I don't want to get through the beauty
But everythng has to end
Even when everything never be started

Gabriel Fermy Aswinta

Adinda, dengarkan

Adinda, mungkin indah dirimu bukan untukku. Tawa dan senyummu yang telah menemani setiap hal yang kupandang, mungkin tak akan pernah kulihat lagi. Megahnya jiwamu mungkin hanya mimpi yang hilang ketika kelopak mataku membuka.

Adinda, waktu bukan sesuatu yang bisa kuatur, begitu pula rasa yang ada di dalam hatimu. Aku telah mencoba melupakanmu, tapi kau bak candu yang telah merasuki setiap mili liter darahku, hanya kau yang tercipta dalam setiap kata.

Adinda, mungkin rasa di hatimu hanya akan menjadi mimpi indah dalam setiap khayal yang datang menemaniku. Manisnya cerita-cerita waktu bila bersamamu mungkin hanya akan datang bila mimpi menjelang. Hanya rasa yang kini tersisa.

Adinda, mungkin air mata ini tak ada artinya. Mungkin kepingan-kepingan hati ini tak akan pernah menyatu. Membaur bersama putih pasir pantai yang mulai tertiup angin.

Adinda, itu mentari yang telah menyinariku hingga kini. Indah merahnya mulai memudar. Kini aku harus kembali bersama chandra dan tenggelam bersama bintang dalam gelap malam hingga menyatu dalam keabadian. Tanpamu. Sendiri. Sepi....

Adinda, cinta telah buta, dan aku membenturmu. Lalui hariku tanpamu, akan ku obati kesepian, akan ku sunggingkan lagi tawa kecil disini, akan kujadikan lagi tawa dari tangisan, namun hanya satu yang akan seperti hari ini. Hanya satu yang tak akan berubah. Ruang megah berhiaskan semua kata dan semua cerita yang ada dalam hatiku tak akan pernah terbuka lagi. Menanti tawamu untuk menghidupkannya lagi.

Untittled

There you go, brings all the tears with you. Scrambled in the moment, it cracks you down. Wishing it was not me who say it.

Leading my mind with hallucinnations and I'm stumbled on you. Trying to understand you, but I crushed you when I dig. Its like singing with the wrong tone. laughing for the missery.

And I did you wrong, and I did all for you. Don't even know what am doing.
O stupidity of love...

Panic

Its like breathing in no air
Its like seeing in no lights
The moment I know you're in pain
The moment you bleed

Its like dreaming of falling
Panic struck instantly
Can't stand to know you hurt
Can't even breath knowing there are something wrong

Seize my mind if you ill
Its like wanna stop time till I get there
And rewind it before you ill
So I can be there to take care of you
Hope I'll be there fast enough to stop it from coming at you
So you'll never feel the pain

I cry
Can't stop the panic
Can't fight the brood
Oh...mind halt
this feelings tainted by your lifelines
don't go now I need you
Don't die on me, life will be silent without you

Love you, Most

Its for you

Some people say to let you go
But letting you go seems the hardest thing to do
I feel desperate yet happy
your poisonus attraction bites me
yet I won't hide from you
I feel everything in you
I found my happiness there
but you never there
I never would turn my back
but you're always lost my sight

I never wanna fight it till forever
and i don't know where it will leads us
but I know love will die never
until emtiness come and lead us
I will do though nothing is waiting
Its for you

Love you, Most